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Desmon 鈥淒ez鈥� Rogers is the first to tell you about his long run-in with the Second Commandment. About how the false idols he bowed down to as he toggled for 30 years between the life of the streets and the life behind bars ultimately brought him to his knees. About how his thirst for money and for the feelings of validation it brought him turned out to be what he calls 鈥済renade love鈥� 鈥� attachments with lethal consequences. And about how, ironically, it was while imprisoned that the now middle-aged screen processor came to discover the freedom he sought for decades.

Mr. Rogers spoke to the Monitor at a well-worn drug treatment house in North Philadelphia as part of our series examining the ways traditional religious codes like the Ten Commandments continue to matter in the lives of ordinary people.

With Mr. Rogers, we discussed the Second Commandment: Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth. Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them. ... (Exodus 20:4.)

Mr. Rogers, who was raised in foster care, received as loving and normal a life as possible thanks to his foster mother, a protective, elderly woman who cared for him from age 11 months until her death when he was 17. 鈥淲hen she died, everything that was meaningful halted,鈥� he explains. The Christmases, Easters 鈥� even the food, shelter, and clothing he鈥檇 taken for granted 鈥� disappeared.听 In the foster system鈥檚 transitional, 鈥渆mancipation鈥� mode, 鈥淚 fell through the cracks,鈥� he recalls 鈥� too old technically for foster care, and too young to be on his own. He was taken in by his foster sisters, who then lived in a housing project, an environment he鈥檇 never been prepared for. 鈥淚 was like one of those kids growing up in a war-torn country who finds love as a 鈥榗hild soldier,鈥欌�� he says.

Money and acceptance by a street 鈥渇amily,鈥� whose business of drugs and guns led to a revolving door of lockups, became his idols. At first, it felt like a safe harbor from an unwelcoming outside world. Each time he was incarcerated, he returned to the streets. 鈥淲hen I came home from lockup, it was 鈥榳here you going to sleep tonight?鈥欌�� he recalls. 鈥淓ach time I came home I came home to nothing. You can鈥檛 get a job.鈥�

Mr. Rogers was raised full-on Baptist 鈥� church, camp, and Bible school 鈥� by his surviving foster family, with whom he remains close, emphasizing that there is nothing 鈥渇oster鈥� about the love and emotion he and his siblings continue to share.

Over time he became turned off by church, which he felt sometimes took advantage of the issues surrounding race and poverty.听 Several churches seemed to him like 鈥渁 pimp game,鈥� assuaging vulnerable congregants in their complacency and comforting them in their suffering with promises of heaven. 鈥淵ou leave [more broken] than you come in.鈥�

Mr. Rogers argues for action: 鈥淵ou can have a better life here. You don鈥檛 have to wait until you get to heaven. You can have a life of peace here.鈥�

While eschewing church for a less institutional spirituality, he nevertheless continued to seek what he called 鈥渢he wisdom of God,鈥� and much of the religious references of his childhood factor into his life now. 鈥淓ven on the streets it was always 鈥楪od, I鈥檓 going wrong.鈥� I asked God to direct me,鈥� but still, he continued to direct himself back to the streets.

It took what Mr. Rogers experienced as the peace and quiet of a prison cell for him to recognize the help he鈥檇 sought. 鈥淕od became big in a small room,鈥� he recalls. There, he began to understand the role his own behavior was playing in his life. Buoyed by an emerging sense that God saw good in him, he concluded that, if that were the case, he should see himself as capable of a good life. 鈥淚f I was always good in Your mind I realize there must be a purpose for me,鈥� he prayed. He began to live, he says, 鈥渁s if there鈥檚 a God.鈥�

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Desmon 鈥楧ez鈥� Rogers, shown on Oct. 20, 2019, in Philadelphia, says he hopes he can help younger men learn earlier in life what he learned the hard way.

A thoroughly introspective man, Mr. Rogers wrestles aloud with the mysteries, inconsistencies, and unfairness and incongruities of life, ever engaged in discovering his purpose. He has no qualms about talking about his walk. He explains, for instance, that feelings of abandonment likely underpin the tendencies to anger, frustration, and resentment that have propelled him for much of his life. But he knows it is on him to tame them.听

From his experiences has emerged a wellspring of observances, such as this one on hope: 鈥淣o matter how low the foundation is, you have something to build on.鈥�

When he wakes up in the morning and when encountering a challenge, he fortifies himself with Scripture. Recently, a verse from Isaiah, 鈥淣o weapon formed against me shall prosper. Everything that rises against me shall fall,鈥� helped when the company he works for, pushing production goals 鈥� unreasonably, he thought 鈥� provoked him. 鈥淯sually I鈥檇 say to myself, I don鈥檛 need this s---鈥� and lose his cool. With time to get his feelings in check, he said, the anger subsided. 鈥淚t wasn鈥檛 that bad. I鈥檝e learned I have to have humility.鈥澨�听听

That virtue gets reinforced when he listens to Gospel Highway radio. One sermon in particular, concerning the 鈥渟pirit of pride,鈥� helped him identify what might well be his Achilles鈥� heel, he says, and understand the role of humility in coping with perceived disrespect.

Sister Sylvia Strahler, program officer of New Jerusalem Now, a residential recovery program where Mr. Rogers has lived since 2017, called him a 鈥減romoter of peace,鈥� with a spiritual perspective that鈥檚 helpful to newer residents. At community meetings, she says, 鈥淗e has good messages for the people. He gets them to see that there鈥檚 a better way. People that are discouraged about how things are going for them, people who are angry, who have been disrespected 鈥� he talks to them and says we have to step back and see what part we鈥檝e played in an argument.鈥澨�听

Some who know Mr. Rogers call him 鈥漃reacher.鈥� But he offers only caveats 鈥� his experience, not his advice 鈥� he said. He hopes that the younger men can learn earlier what he learned the hard way. Some do. One in particular sticks with him 鈥� a distraught man who was struggling with addiction who was in the program nearly a year. He was estranged from his family and ready to give up. Mr. Rogers encouraged him to stay, and he did, eventually finishing his program and reconciling with his family.

The fact that he himself has now traded his street family for the real deal brings Mr. Rogers a weekly infusion of joy. Admittedly sad sometimes about what might have been, he鈥檚 no longer consumed by bitterness and anger. 鈥淚 just have a spirit of gratitude,鈥� he says. In coming to terms with his own shortcomings, he鈥檚 more accepting of those of others. 鈥淚t was just me growing up and understanding that I鈥檝e only got one chance at life. I have to decide, 鈥榳hat is my legacy?鈥欌��

On weekdays, he gets up at 4 a.m. to take a long bus ride to work, where he works 10-hour days, returning at night to his third-floor room at New Jerusalem. Weekends, he takes the train to Wilmington, Delaware, and his own extended family, a fussing, coddling, affirming bunch that includes his 19-year-old daughter, his siblings, and many nieces and nephews.

As for his graven images, 鈥淭hey鈥檙e really not important to me anymore.鈥� He鈥檚 looking down instead at what he calls the 鈥渞ough side of the mountain,鈥� and says he has climbed it with God鈥檚 grace.

Part 1: The Commandments as a moral source code in modern life

Part 2: How does the First Commandment fit in today?

Part 3:听鈥業 have to have humility鈥�: How Second Commandment helped man find freedom

Part听4:听One woman embraces Third Commandment in feeding 1,600 at Thanksgiving

Part 5: 鈥楻emember the sabbath鈥�: How one family lives the Fourth Commandment

Part 6: 鈥�Growing up is hard鈥�: How Fifth Commandment guided a child during divorce

Part 7: Is saying 鈥業鈥檇 kill for those shoes鈥� OK? One woman and Sixth Commandment.

Part 8: Is chastity old-fashioned? An NFL veteran鈥檚 take on Seventh Commandment.

Part 9: 鈥楾hou shalt not steal鈥�: Even someone else鈥檚 joy, says one educator

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Part 11: Jealousy at Ivy League level: How a law professor views Tenth Commandment