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Part 14 of Gretchen Belsie鈥檚聽account of her trip聽with husband聽Laurent聽and their first adopted Chinese daughter 鈥� 10-year-old Grace 鈥� as they head to meet and bring home 7-year-old Madeleine Bao Yi. This is the final daily update in the China adoption series, but Gretchen will continue to provide occasional updates on the Belsie family for Modern Parenthood.

Once I鈥檓 done here, Laurent will unplug the computer and pack it in the suitcase so we鈥檒l be ready to head out early in the morning for the聽Hong Kong听补颈谤辫辞谤迟.

It鈥檚 always hard for me to wrap up a trip, to say goodbye to friends, to close a chapter.

Living in five-star hotels for two weeks doesn鈥檛 replicate real life, but it鈥檚 sort of fun. Grace is sad to leave the Garden Hotel, though inveterate hospitality sample collector that she is, she鈥檒l have enough shampoo squirreled away to make it to at least Columbus Day. Laurent will miss the respite from work. I know Madeleine Bao Yi will miss the breakfast buffet with all its choices. We鈥檒l be scaling down the options to two items instead of half a dozen. I鈥檒l miss seeing all the international families with Chinese children sitting in the 鈥渁doption gulag鈥� section of the breakfast room.

I鈥檒l also miss the camaraderie of fellow adopters, some of whom encounter more cross-cultural snags than the rest of us. It was only late yesterday that one family realized they would have to give back the stroller loaned to them from the hotel concierge and that they needed to buy something for the trip home. The father asked the concierge where he might find one in the stores around the hotel. He was given a piece of paper with Chinese characters on it and assumed that the words said 鈥渟troller.鈥� He proceeded to the Trust-Mart and showed the paper to various clerks who, in turn, smiled, shook their heads 鈥測es鈥� and pointed to the floor.

After several such interactions, he came back to the hotel, sans stroller. Later on, when he asked Simon what the paper said, and 聽Simon smiled and responded, 鈥淲hy, it says 鈥楾rust-Mart.鈥欌��

I suggested he try Gucci or Fendi, but my advice fell on deaf ears. 聽聽聽聽聽聽

For me, today was all about introspection. While the other three went down to the pool twice for a refreshing swim, I was busy packing things up, double checking all our documents, and reflecting on what the last two weeks had meant to me 鈥� and to us as a family. I really didn鈥檛 mind the solitude. It seemed important to examine this period of great change and see what I could see.

There had been a bumpy patch this morning when a minor turf war broke out over a pair of Mary Janes from Payless. Even though they now pinch a bit, Grace felt the shoes were hers. Period. Bao Yi, on the other hand, liked the look 鈥� especially when paired with oversized white socks that leave the heel part way up on the ankle and puffed out slightly.

Laurent used cool male logic to reason with Grace but it didn鈥檛 wash. I could tell she was bewildered and felt apprehensive about boundaries and limits with her sister. What it all boiled down to was the notion of possession.

After they all left for the pool, I felt a momentary sense of panic. With the language barrier among us, it would take some time for the basics of fair play and sharing to be clearly stated and understood. Then there was the unknown variable from Bao Yi鈥檚 past experience. Had she been deprived? Could she learn to adjust to the American standard of 鈥渕ore than enough鈥�?

How would we be able to help our daughters bridge this gap?

In that brief moment, the thought came to me 鈥淲hat have we done?鈥� And right on its heels came the response 鈥淲hat have we done!鈥� It鈥檚 all about the punctuation. Parenting angst turned slowly but surely to expectation for our future as an interracial, multi-lingual family. Certainly there will be bumps along the road we鈥檒l travel, but the views may well be spectacular.

So starting tomorrow morning at 5 a.m., as we get Grace and Bao Yi ready for the long journey home, we鈥檒l have a fresh opportunity to address the question of 鈥測ours鈥� versus 鈥渕ine.鈥�

The answer is right in front of us: From here on out, let鈥檚 think in terms of 鈥渙urs.鈥澛�