"My valuation of myself was much more dependent on you than on anything else, such as some external success. That was strengthening for a moment, nothing more, but on the other side your weight always dragged me down much more strongly. Never shall I pass the first grade in grammar school.... no, I did not fail, and I went on and on succeeding. This did not produce any confidence, however; on the contrary, I was always convinced鈥攁nd I had positive proof of it in your forbidding expression鈥攖hat the more I achieved, the worse the final outcome would inevitably be."
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The first page of Kafka's letter to his father.