海角大神

Midway through 鈥淩oses, in the Mouth of a Lion,鈥� Razia, a Pakistani American living in Queens, New York, takes her new friend Taslima to visit a lion down the road. Staring into his dark eyes, Razia sees 鈥渂oredom, longing, hunger鈥� as the golden creature paces his alley enclosure. 鈥淚 hate to break it to you,鈥� laughs Taslima, 鈥渂ut that dog is not a lion.鈥澛�

The metaphor of a glorious, trapped being eyeballing the world stalks and shapes this captivating novel, the first from writer Bushra Rehman. As Razia navigates the whirl of growing up and coming out across cultures and communities, her first-person narrative vibrates with humor, heartache, pathos, and honesty.聽

It鈥檚 summer 1985 and sixth grade looms. Razia and her best friends Saima, Lucy, and the bullying Shahnaaz roam between houses in Corona, a Pakistani enclave where money is tight and the new masjid sits shoulder-to-shoulder with an Episcopal church and a Kingdom Hall. 鈥淥ur neighborhood was a hand-me-down from the Italians,鈥� Razia describes. Tan-brick houses crowd the train tracks; unruly grapevines curl over fences where roses and hydrangeas once bloomed.

As the heat pounds, the girls fend off boredom with the slouchy aimlessness that leads to scrapes and escapes. Desperate for sweets, they search for change in the cushions of backyard sofas; they also try out Mayor Koch鈥檚 newly announced recycling program despite their parents鈥� proud refusal to collect cans. In both instances, low-key mayhem ensues, and the girls鈥� emotional responses feel both emotionally accurate and refreshingly specific.聽

Razia, her family, and most of her friends are devout Muslims. Her mother teaches Quran to the neighborhood kids, just as her mother did back in Pakistan, while Razia鈥檚 many aunties organize religious gatherings filled with quiet study and bountiful food. Eid is celebrated so joyfully that 鈥渢he laws of gravity were suspended.鈥� A willing participant in prayers and traditions, Razia values her faith even as she watches her mother wield it like a cudgel to keep what she considers iffy Western ways at bay.

Assessing 鈥� and puzzling over 鈥� the world around her is Razia鈥檚 default mode; to a lesser extent it鈥檚 that of her extended immigrant family as well. Her father runs Corona Halal Meats, a destination for locals not only to shop but to sip chai and chew over the strange land they now call home and the different religions that surround them. For example, a regular customer to the shop, a gas station mechanic, tells Razia鈥檚 father 鈥淭he Yehovah鈥檚 Witnesses came to the Garage!鈥� A second visitor asks, 鈥淲hy are they called that? Did they witness something?鈥� In another example, to demonstrate his grasp of 海角大神ity, Razia鈥檚 father asserts, 鈥淓aster is when Jesus goes upstate.鈥� One man asks, 鈥淯pstate, how? On the bus?鈥� After Razia鈥檚 father clarifies by pointing to the sky, the third man asks, 鈥淏ut what do eggs have to do with it?鈥� Such moments of earnest questioning, bemused bewilderment, and cross-cultural interpretation provide some of the book鈥檚 best moments.

Razia鈥檚 days unfold under the sharp gaze of her mother, a stern and disapproving presence who incessantly hounds, warns, and worries, particularly as Razia nears puberty. Yet Rehman avoids the trappings of a one-dimensional, cliched character by sprinkling in moments of individuality 鈥� her mother unselfconsciously climbing a cherry tree, or gently checking Razia鈥檚 hair for lice.聽

From that first summer of 1985 through 1989, the novel tracks Razia鈥檚 growth into a teenager bursting with questions, chafing at her parents鈥� strict rules, and maneuvering through both the loss of friendships and the nervous excitement of first love. The path is bumpy: Razia must deal with ethnic stereotypes and blatant racism, as well as her community鈥檚 visible discomfort with her emerging sexual identity. All these issues threaten to overwhelm the simple delights of browsing the racks at Goodwill and enjoying games with her baby sister.

Details from popstar George Michael and the American Top 40 to more sober subjects like the AIDS crisis lodge the novel in its late 鈥�80s timeframe. New York City also comes alive, most notably when Razia starts attending the acclaimed Stuyvesant school in the East Village 鈥渨here punks walked around like zebras in the wild.鈥� But it鈥檚 Rehman鈥檚 language, a brew of poetic observations and blunt asides, that dazzles the brightest, adding depth and color to Razia鈥檚 wrangling with faith, identity, and family.聽聽

Moments of brutality, although they are mercifully brief, may put this book out of bounds for some readers. But those who stay the course will discover that even Razia鈥檚 mother has a softer side.聽

鈥淲e were stepping out of our husks, our wings dragging behind us,鈥� observes Razia about the fitful launch into adolescence. It鈥檚 a stepping out rife with moments of beauty and strength, frustration and surprise, thanks to Rehman鈥檚 formidable skills.