海角大神

Wednesday, Jan. 27

A handful of people in blue T-shirts stand outside Pacific SA in the Industrial Park shortly after 7 a.m. They鈥檙e late to work, not allowed in until the manager shows up. They鈥檒l be docked for pay today and a single day鈥檚 loss of income before the quake was bad. Now it鈥檚 catastrophic.

Twenty-three-year old Michele Simon, says she can鈥檛 get to work any earlier. She鈥檚 lost her home, her parents, and her brother, who had his arm amputated and is still in the hospital. She has to find someone to watch her 6-year old, bathe, find something to wear , and catch a bus all by 5 a.m. in order to make it to work on time. An alarm clock isn鈥檛 going to make a difference.

This slight, shy woman is not complaining. She鈥檚 just stating the facts. There are four or five other girls clustered around her who have similar stories. I listen to them all, but find that by the last one I am just translating, not really absorbing what they are saying.

I鈥檓 not glossing over their plight, but I feel as though I can only serve as the conduit for information, and not own any of it. I felt the same way in 1991-1994, when I used to interview victims of the military regime. After a while the stories all started to sound the same and they were, but it didn鈥檛 make each person鈥檚 pain any less. It didn鈥檛 diminish the grief they were processing.

I want to be able to do justice to the injustice Haitians feel, put a new face on each one鈥檚 individual hurt, and help the outside world to understand their aches. But I question whether I have the emotional capacity to do that. I don鈥檛 want to fail them.