Reading My Father
It鈥檚 almost always a mistake to learn too much about the artist you admire.
Think Picasso is a genius? Don鈥檛 ask how he treated Fran莽oise Gilot. Believe in John Lennon as an idealistic peacemonger? Stay away from accounts of his dealings with Paul McCartney.
And so, in that spirit, I advise you to approach Reading My Father, Alexandra Styron鈥檚 candid, bruising memoir about her father, William Stryon, with caution. If you consider Styron one of the great literary voices of the 20th century, nothing in his daughter鈥檚 book will change your mind. But you may find it harder to reverence his novels quite as highly after learning of the price that Styron 鈥� and those closest to him 鈥� paid for their creation.
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Otherwise, however, 鈥淩eading My Father,鈥� has much to recommend it. Styron is a truly gifted writer in her own right. And she has access to her father 鈥� his papers, her memories, family lore 鈥� that few others can deliver. Her book is both an informed (albeit dark) examination of a significant literary figure and an engaging (albeit poignant) memoir about growing up in the shadow of fame.
William Styron, of course, has already told the world much about his own inner darkness. In addition to his three highly acclaimed novels (鈥淟ie Down in Darkness鈥� in 1951; 鈥�The Confessions of Nat Turner鈥� in 1967; and 鈥淪ophie鈥檚 Choice鈥� in 1979), Styron was also the author of 鈥淒arkness Visible,鈥� a 1990 nonfiction account detailing his horrific battle with depression.
But Alexandra, Styron鈥檚 youngest child of four, has issues of her own to hash out.
Who was this man? 鈥淎t times querulous and taciturn, cutting and remote, melancholy when he was sober and rageful when in his cups, he inspired fear and loathing in us a good deal more often than it feels comfortable to admit.鈥� That鈥檚 how Styron remembers her father鈥檚 domestic side. While his colleagues recall a friend and critic who was 鈥減atient, thoughtful, and enormously generous,鈥� she feels stuck with the memory of a man who entertained himself by telling his little daughter that he was going to sell her pony to a glue factory and by suggesting that the 鈥渋mbeciles鈥� in a nearby state institution might escape and 鈥渄o vile things鈥� to her.
Styron never really succeeds in solving the mystery that was her father. She traces him from his lonely Southern boyhood (his mother died young and his stepmother openly disdained him), on through his early career struggles (when it was his own adoring father who kept him afloat), to his years of great success (she was 12 when 鈥淪ophie鈥檚 Choice鈥� was published) and then, sadly 鈥� on to the breakdowns in 1985 and 2000 that finally incapacitated him.
She offers interesting insights into the affections and experiences that helped to shape him, including his great love for his father, his disaffection with the South and its attitudes, and his all-consuming need to prove himself as a novelist.
But she remains puzzled as to the cause of his worst anguish. 鈥淒id my father鈥檚 depression steal his creative gift?鈥� she wonders. 鈥淥r was it the other way around, an estrangement from his muse driving him down in increments till he hit rock bottom? There鈥檚 no single answer, no simple trajectory.鈥�
Her own unhappiness seems more clear-cut. 鈥淸W]hat I鈥檇 grown up knowing,鈥� she writes, was 鈥渁 father always at home upsetting the applecart and a mother who took every opportunity to run away.鈥�
As for growing up among the rich and famous, she paints an often appealing picture of an affluent, 鈥渉aute bohemian鈥� household accustomed to Christmas piano parties at Leonard Bernstein鈥檚 and spontaneous summer visits from Ted Kennedy. But, she notes, eventually there was a price to be paid for all those easy childhood pleasures. As a young woman she beat herself up trying to find a talent that would ensure her an enduring place in the world of the famous. She landed in thrice-weekly therapy and even as she walked home from those sessions in tears, she recalls wryly, 鈥淚 kept running into acquaintances who just had to tell me how 鈥楧arkness Visible鈥� had changed their lives.鈥�
鈥淩eading My Father鈥� is not a vengeful book. Styron clearly loved her father very much. Rather than angry, she more often comes across as puzzled at the hand dealt her as the daughter of a 鈥済enius.鈥�
鈥淵our father was a real writer, a real artist,鈥� his best friend tells her.鈥� If you have to indulge somebody like that, you do.鈥�
Styron herself is clearly not convinced. 鈥�Maybe,鈥� she writes. 鈥�Or maybe not. Having been born into the system, how would I ever know?鈥�
Marjorie Kehe is the Monitor鈥檚 book editor.
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